There are so many reasons for this. I won't regale you with them; instead I'll tell you that I recently made an inner pledge to draw just a little bit more and since I was on my way to yoga class right as I made that pledge, I brought with me a little sketchbook and my favorite brush pen (thank you again, Ansel) and drew people as they warmed up.
Then I went to work and right before my first student appeared I had time to sketch these cute birds from the bird calendar hanging on the wall in my studio:
I love the action in the picture above.
I have been reading about Goethe, who struggled with reconciling different parts of himself: the artist, the man, the member of society, the efficacious maker of policies and shaper of civil life.
He wanted to be it all, cultivate it all: he felt it all within himself, could not let one part die so that another could live.
That, he felt, would be an untruth.
As far as I can tell what he felt, of course.
Here's what I can share with you about Goethe with certainty: